Mike, he's the one that cooks . . . why do think I want him to live?!
Yes, I could do the blackmail thing, but I've tried that, as early as last night. I told him if he didn't want me involved in his medical issues, then I would pull the plug on ANYTHING involving mine . . . all it did was inflame the situation.
I realized between last night and this morning that if I keep pushing him, he's just going to get angrier and more withdrawn.
However, we did have a talk this morning on the way to a dear friend's funeral, btw. We had both calmed down and I took the high road and apologized and told him I had been wrong in pushing him. It was the only thing I could think of to get us on an even keel again; to just bring the tension down as much as possible and get back to being "us" again.
He seemed relieved and after some quiet time, he started talking about Cystectomy. He wanted to discuss what we needed to do to prepare for it and the first thing was exercise and getting stronger. I said it was much like preparing for a major marathon from what I had read on this support group and that alot of the men here encouraged exercise prior to surgery.
The other thing is the possible complications, for which I said I would get that information on this support group. We need to know what kind of complications there are that are across the board in terms of commonality; I know it depends on the person and their chemistry but for Neo Bladder, are there any complications that are the same and of course the ones that are out of left field.
I feel like a yoyo. Once minute, I'm a Dentist pulling teeth and the next, we're talking "real time" reality.
I don't know what happened, but he just started discussing what we need to do to prepare for this as much as we can.
I think he just wants to discuss what he believes he has control over doing on his own . . . as for the other stuff, second opinions, finding out about the surgeons, maybe possibly looking for a better one, etc. is something he needs to think of himself. If I suggest it, he'll go off the wall again.
I have to learn the fine art of making it look like these things are his ideas and not mine.
Thanks for your humor and your support Mike. I sure appreciate it. Let's see what happens next week.
Rayn