Well I realy dont know how to describe my attitude,I dont have that burning desire lets fight this thing ,we will beat it ,rah,rah,rah, Nope sorry just aint there. First its ya got bladder cancer ,ok,then latter oh by the way we found some in your lungs.Now it s lets get a lung biopsy ,doesnt seem all that much fun to me .Then we will put you on chemo for that,again been there and watched how that works noy nice. Then after we get you beat down on chemo ,lets take a bunch of your parts out and plumb you for a bag,oh by the way its all pretty ruff surgery ,and could take months to get going again,barring complications,infections,etc,etc. And then if you make it thru all that,we gotta check every few months ,and who knows maybe more surgery's or more chemo. Seems ya gotta have a real desire to go thru all that and with no gaurentee's any of it will work, and a pretty dramtic lifestyle change .Plus the expense ,my INS is poor at best.I have been just getting by since I lost my wife a day at a time ,not a real happy life. Im honestly not depressed just in my mind going why go thru all that,when I wasnt that happy in the frist place.Seems like a lot to go thru to just have a blah life any way. I cant find any info on what happens if left untreated ,understand not fast or pretty. Im gonna talk to the Doc again and see if he will give some real answers on that,maybe just ride it out and hope for some good pain management . May not be a good post to leave up as I really dont want to have a negitive affect on the folks that are willing to give it the good fight .