We're gearing up for school starting back (Thurs for Jerry, Mon for me). Health wise, right now, Jerry is doing pretty good. His last tests all showed all clear, almost time now for another set. His energy level seems to slowly be increasing. But his memory sure doesn't. He still seems to need help to remember all the meds/appts/details, and that is frustrating for him. And for me when he does something like drive past the gas station on the corner, only to then run out of gas a mile from the next one...and since he's not strong enough to walk that far in 104 temp that leaves me walking it. We're in the country and that part of the road has no cell phone signal...and no houses. Yippee!
Jerry was diagnosed at the end of school last year, and last summer was filled with surgeries and the start of chemo. With everything going on this last school year was like a blur. This summer has been spent trying to catch up on everything around here that needed to be done (we've got a 10 acre farm). With my commute I'm gone 60 hours a week, and I am soooo not ready for that to kick back in next week. I still have too much to do, and am already too tired to get it all done. I am also helping my mom with things around the house (my dad passed 2 summers ago). I know I never thought I'd be dealing with all of this at 41. But, I know we'll get through this.
Lorrie, I feel so deeply for what you're going through. The smell, the laundry, all of it...it's gotten to me sooo much tonight. I know how hard it is to open up and let it out, and I am so glad you feel safe enough here to do that. It helps all of us (who are so often keeping it all in) to realize that we are not the only ones in this boat. Reading what you said helped me so much tonight. That's what's so wonderful about this site! It seems that just the moments that I'm sitting here feeling too overwhelmed to go on I find the strength I need from you guys!
I've wiped away the tears for tonight. And am off to finish the plans for our 3rd anniversary Thursday...and more laundry...and cleaning up from the painting I was doing earlier...and somewhere in that I'll find time to sleep. Just another day in the life of a caregiver. lol
Thank you to all of you on here...you're my inspiration, my motivation, my strength...you are the best! Know you're all in my prayers!