I'm sorry to hear about what you are needing to deal with. I understand some of the feelings as I spent the first six weeks being sick to my stomach after learning my husband's results from his biopsy. He acquired a neobladder October 12, 2006 and is now doing chemo. We are glad to be at this point and pleased with the treatment he is getting and his progress (though there are challenges, struggles, and ups and downs). However, we did keep reevaluating and questioning at different stages.
We know we are in excellent hands at a top cancer center so that helps with some of the stress and decisions but questioning is good in our belief. I would encourage you to get a second opinion just so you can feel comfortable that you did what you could prior to the surgery.
This website is a blessing.
Good luck, Sam