Ms. Pam,
You are part of your husband's team, a very important member of Mike's team. What if land is a scary place to go and one that I have been many times. I, too, try to portray only a positive attitude in Doug's (my husband) bladder cancer experiences. You will get through this; your love for Mike will help you as will your faith in God.
Prayers are with you,
Anita
Doc -- I try not to drag the patient down with my drama!! I guess screaming in the streets would be okay as long as the patient isn't looking out the window.
I know I've cried and screamed at the insurance people (not in the presence of Doug).