Pat, Holly, Rosie, Rosemary, Wendy, David, and dmartin,
I just can't thank you all enough with your thoughts, information, concerns, and time that you have given me.
Yes, I am very concerned about a misdiagnosis, but I know all will turn out in the end. I really believe everything happens for a reason even if it is not.
I will try to explain my concerns.....
I also started another topic asking if anyone has experienced the treatment of Thiotepa. Wendy responded and really made me see what was really happening.
When diagnosed, I had lost my job of employment along with my health insurance. I thought no problem, I would just apply the following year for another teaching position. Well, three months had past and I hadn't fully recovered from my last surgery. I did apply for a couple of positions the following year, but both places could see I was still ill, asked about it, I told them, and they were very honest and very caring in saying they were very sorry, but they needed someone that would be a little more dependable.
By then, it was time for my next cysto, had more tumors, they were removed. Same story for the next two years.
During this time, I had to apply for the state health insurance for low-income. Was accepted and was being treated for two years. The first year, I never received any treatments what-so-ever. I got behind $245.00 in payment to my Uro. I went in for my next cysto, already seeing the blood, and they refused to see me unless I could come up with the full $245.00 in which was impossible for me at the time, so needless to say, I had to find another URO that would accept me.
I found a new one and he has treated me for the last year. He did treat me with 6 sessions of Thiotepa and he treated me as if I was just a pain in his bladder. NO bedside manners, no time for me, and only one response when I was telling him my symptoms, "It has nothing to do with the cancer or treatments."
Like Wendy said in her response, Thiotepa I think may be one of the least expensive intravesical chemo drugs because it's been around so long. Well, I am soooo sure she is right and this is why I have been treated like I have been because of the insurance I was on.
Now, I have none. When I was suppose to take my second round of treatments, the state health insurance refused me.
I feel I have been left out in the cold with the vulgers just hanging over waiting for me to die.
I have worked so VERY hard all of my life. I had paid my taxes every year. I raised three children on my own without Child support or any help through the state. I put myself through college and made something of myself, but this is all unknown to those in which I try to receive help from. They can only see me as, I guess, a bum, even though I started a small business just to have some sort of income, not worrying about having to lose my job from missing so many days of being sick, and that way I can come and go when needed. To receive any kind of help, I have to be pennyless without any type of job. I WON'T LIVE THAT WAY! I refuse.
I truly am so sorry to reveal all of this to all of you, but I just don't know who else would understand.
I love you all and thank you all for what you have done for me and have given me.
Your Friend,
Alice