I am absolutely terrified! The urologist did a cystoscopy and bladder wash a few weeks ago. He said the cystoscopy looked clear but his nurse called me about a week later and said there were cells that were suspicious for high-grade carcinoma and recommended a bladder biopsy.
I had that done today and after I got home, I developed severe abdominal pain and was unable to urinate. I went to the ER and they did a CT which showed a small perforation of the bladder wall at one of the biopsy sites.
Now I am terrified!! If I do have cancer, this perforation just spread the cancer cells that were confined to the surface of my bladder to the rest of my body!! Did I really just go from no tumor, possibly CIS to stage 4?? I am freaking oyt!!!!