If you have had bladder cancer (Ta, Grade I) and they cut it out, do you consider yourself "having cancer", or did you "have cancer"? I was just diagnosed a month ago, and had my first cystoscopy... now I wait six months. How long do you have to go after a recurrence before you say "I HAD cancer"? This is all so new to me.... and when you don't look sick or feel sick, it's very strange to think "I have cancer". I'm paying attention to it, eating healthy, avoiding certain things... I just wonder how many out there think of their cancer in the present, or in the past, till the next "poke and peek"...