:'(
I have been so proud of myself for the way that I have handled my diagnosis (CIS, four weeks into BCG) but today I hit bottom. For no particular reason, started crying and can't stop. Please forgive me for bothering you dear friends, but I just need to vent.
Try to stay optimistic....and the things I read on this list are a big help...knowing that others have been here before me and are doing well. And drawing on the courage of those who are having problems worse than mine. BUT....
Have probably read everything on the internet about bladder cancer. Sometimes it seems hopeful, but today, as I said, everything looks black. I know about statistics and I know that they do not describe individuals. But just read that a. BCG doesn't work as well after age 70 (I was 70 and two weeks when we started) and b. that BC doesn't have as good a prognosis in women as in men. I KNOW....BUT EVERYTHING JUST HIT ME WRONG TODAY.
Thanks for letting me vent. Tomorrow will be better, I know.