I can TOTALLY relate! I was always the cool one on the outside. My family thought I had it totally together.
NOT!
Before every visit I slept poorly and was SURE the visit was going to show something new. Even though I am now a part of the 6 month club, I still get a little nervous. It is normal.........I hope!
Good luck. I will be sending you a prayer for good luck. If God answers suto salesman's prayers
George