Hello All,
After a few minor incidents of blood in my urine, I had several tests done including a CT scan, blood work and cytology. All of that came back negative.
However, today I had a cystoscopy, the final exploration into what might be causing the bleeding, and the doctor found a growth that he couldn't identify. He said it might be something benign, or it might (50/50 I believe is what he said) papillary cancer. I was absolutely not expecting this, and neither was he. I'm 50 years old, healthy, never smoked.
I'm scheduled for a TURP next Tuesday to remove the growth and have it sent off to pathology.
Needless to say, I am terrified, depressed, freaked out and utterly out of my mind. He also said it would take 2 weeks to get the pathology back, so this frightens me even more, all that waiting.
I'm not ready to die. I know that sounds silly. No one wants to die. But I'm in such a dark place right now.
I guess I'm just looking for some support. Words of encouragement....
Thanks for listening.