Lupenbill,
That is a great diagnosis; if it has to be cancer, you could not have asked for better. Once all this sinks in, it will start to become more comfortable. If you have a sleepless night or two in the meantime, everyone here will likely understand.
Ta - Bladder cancer that is noninvasive papillary carcinoma has the best outcomes and is easiest to treat. You will see more of your urology team than you would like, but you will want to. Your highly achievable goal now is beat the Ta and retain your bladder.
My diagnosis is similar to your with cis added, and prior kidney issues. Once I settled on a plan and a back-up plan, the road ahead became clear and acceptable.
I am going to beat the Ta-cis cancer and keep my bladder - I will go along with the treatments and maintain my life as close to normal as possible while the fight is on.
I know that the cancer will come back, I just don't know when , so I will always be ready to accept additional treatment.
I will keep informed of any changes in stage. IF the cancer begins to approach invasive, I want enough warning to remove the bladder lose the cancer while it is confined to the bladder.
Having accepted this plan of action, I can sleep at night. I don't have to worry about every little bump in the road (like my first recurrence of cancer a few months after BCG treatment) because I am focused on the safety net of bladder removal.
I have read the success stories of life after radical cystectomy by others here. Not my first choice, but I can go that route if necessary. Life has been full of changes and surprises so far - how hard can one more change be ?
I hope you find some comfort in facing the challenge that has been presented to you. For me, knowing where I am going keeps me in control and ready to face whatever happens next.
Best,
Jack