Well, cystoscopy showed a little mushroom head, 1 cm, hanging out in my bladder. Dr says it's cancer. I have no idea what to do right now. I feel unbelievably happy and lucky to have caught it, really sad because I will probably have to leave my job and my life where I'm currently living and go back to be with my family, really angry because duh, and really scared about the worst case scenario. Luckily, the doctor said that based on what he saw it is probably low grade and we will just do TURBT and then checkups every 3 months. They didn't take it out today (which seems weird to me) but I will do this soon. Can't really know anything until the biopsy comes back, I guess.