We are all saddened (and frightened)when someone we are close to dies, its a natural thing to feel that way. If its a young person then that sadness is even greater.
You must realize Doc, that you are no different than most of us here. We are all frightened, some of us show it more, some of us manage to put on a brave face and hide our fears.
Reading posts of other sufferers, we must realize that we are not alone and all of us face the possibility of death, but happily,on the other side, we all face the positive hope of fighting and winning the fight of BC, which is more than likely with today's medical treatments. Many posters have put the disease behind them and their life gets on track again.
If we go through life worrying and dwelling about what might be, we won't have time to live the moment with peace of mind and make others around us happy. I know dear friend what you must be going through and my heart felt thoughts are with you and your family.
You know you will say, what does Danielle know what I am suffering. I know Doc, and its for that reason I have answered your post.
I am sorry for your loss and I pray you will get a little strength from our posts.
Cyber hugs, Danielle