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Smoking.
I searched the forum and I don’t see any thread on the specific topic of smoking.
As many us find out at some point, bladder cancer is the second leading cancer for smokers and smokers have a higher rate of bladder cancer than non-smokers (although non-smokers certainly make up a fairly large number of those with the disease).
I am a former cigarette smoker. I say former because I stopped soon after I was diagnosed with T1HG bladder cancer in late August. I don’t like that I am not a smoker but I understand that the chance of recurrence is higher if I continue to smoke. That’s what I’ve read anyway and my doctor at Johns Hopkins confirmed the accuracy of the information.
I started smoking probably around 14 or so (middle school). By the time I graduated high school I was probably up to a pack a day and I stayed there until I was in my late 30’s when I started decreasing the amount I smoked. For the last 10 or so years I’ve been down to about 6 a day. All in all I’ve been a cigarette smoker for about 44 years.
I always said to people that I loved smoking (and I did…do…did) but that I wouldn’t be surprised if I was told that I had cancer at some point in my life. As it turns out, I was surprised when I was told I had bladder cancer, but I wasn’t shocked or in any kind of denial. It made perfect sense to me. I didn’t have any “why me!?” moment. And, while my bladder cancer may have nothing to do with my smoking, it very well could. I’ll never really know.
I don’t blame myself for having bladder cancer, even if it could be directly traced to my smoking. I don’t feel sorry for myself either. I just feel kind of numb. I am hoping I will regain my enthusiasm for life if I get the all-clear after my second TURBT and BCG treatments. Right now I just feel like my life is on hold and, I hate to say it, I’m thinking that I might as well smoke again until I know I’m in the clear. But I also know that smoking seems to interfere with BCG treatments, so I’m in a real fix.
I’ve thought about vaping or some other alternative form of nicotine delivery, but I know it would lead me back to smoking cigarettes, my true love. I’ve thought of just smoking cigarettes but not inhaling, which I used to do for much of my cigarettes anyway in an effort to cut down. But I know I’d start inhaling a drag or two and would sooner or later be back up to five or so a day in no time. I thought of smoking again and giving myself a longer period to cut down. I only gave myself a day or so notice when I quiet in August. But that plan wouldn’t make sense. Why go back to smoking after not smoking since late August just so I can stop again? That’s insane thinking. In the end I won’t smoke. I just won’t smoke.
In any event, I just wanted to post something about smoking since I’m sure it has been a subject of interest to many members of this forum and may be of interest to any future members.
08/16/16 – TURBT – 1 tumor, T1HG, 7.5 cm x 7.5 cm x 1.8 cm, non-invasive papillary.
BCG treatments (15 doses total – last March, 2018). As of latest cysto on June 30, 2024, cancer free!