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Scared but not diagnosed
I have been not feeling myself for several weeks. Not sleeping well, tired, unable to focus, catching every virus that I cross paths with, etc..so I went to the doctor and they ran a slew of blood tests and a urinalysis on 01/22. Everything came back perfect except my white blood cell count was 19.4, almost double what it should be. My Neutrophils were elevated as well. So my doctor put me on a 10 day dose of a strong antibiotic and wanted to re draw blood in a month. However 10 days into my anti biotic, I felt like I had a UTI. so I went to the doctor on Friday and they tested my urine and said I do not have a UTI. (no nitrates or white blood cells) but that I had a lot of blood in my urine. Doctor was surprised when I said I couldnt visually see it.
I had a CT last april for other things and at that time everyting looked fine. He is sending me to a urologist and I see him Wednesday morning. He used the “C” word as a possibility. I am a 45 year old female and I am a smoker. He said that bladder cancer is very high in smokers. I cried all the way home. I am so scared that this will be bad news when I go to the specialist. How do you cope with these fears? I try to put it on the back burner but it creeps up once in a while. I try to tell myself not to worry about it until I know for sure but its always there in the back of my mind.