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hi this is me
Posted by lisaloo on February 16, 2009 at 8:19 pmHi
I just wanted to let those who I regularly chat with know that my last check up wasnt great.My prognosis was never good and now its playing itself out. I have widespread mets and its a matter of trying to keep things at bay and me comfortable.
I am fine its almost a relief to be honest just to know I havent to try and fight it anymore no more dread of the words its spead.I feel ok at the moment strong physically and mentally.The worst has happened and now I have to deal with it.I am going to live life to the full for the next few months and take each day as it comes and I dont want anyone to be sad.
This is tha hardest thing I have ever written and doesnt sound like I wanted it to I wanted it to be positive and as relieved as I am but it sounds sad.
When I have worked out the technology I will put some photos of me and the girls at the weekend on chat and you will see I am happy and ok
Lisa xxMelodie replied 15 years, 11 months ago 14 Members · 15 Replies -
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Lisa,
We struggle so with words at times like this…we are all connected heart and soul to you and each other….we feel sadness and yet in awe of your strength and character…I will keep you in my prayers morning and evening and sometimes in the in-between times of my day. Each day is a gift…I pray you can unwrap each one with grace and joy, savoring all the moments given. Hugs, Melodie
Melodie, Indy Pouch, U.W.Medical Center, Seattle, Dr. Paul H. Lange & Jonathan L. WrightLisa-
Just wanted to check in with you.
I do hope that this is a good time for you.
I can only imagine that the children are enjoying being with you.
Yes, pictures would be lovely to see… to caringly share in your moment of time.Take care, we continue to keep you in our prayers and on our minds.
Your BC friend,
BJI can’t wait to see the pics you are posting. And Wow! I, too, am in admiration of you and your decision to live life to its fullest. I can’t imagine how difficult this all was, but what a great attitude. I’m glad to hear you are strong mentally and physically.
I’m sure we all have “those things we always wanted to do” and as soon as you make any plan, even a small pleasure, please let us know. (With pics, if you can, so we can share.) :)
A great big hug for you every morning as you “take each day as it comes”, calypso
“You can’t smooth out the surf, but you can learn to ride the waves.”– Author unknown
GuestFebruary 21, 2009 at 5:22 amLisa,
My heart goes out to you and I also wish I could change how things are. Your honesty with yourself and others about the choices are courageous. Inspiring and real – you are indeed living life fuller than many ever do. I am here for you and will always keep you in my prayers. Love, Holly
Lisa-
I wish I had a magic wand that could take away your pain and sorrow. I wish I had the magic mirror that could take you to the future so that you could see your family and know things are alright. That only happens in fairy tales and although you are a Princess, these things cannot happen.
In December I faced death and thought I was ready…. I was ready but God had other plans and I am still here. What I had decided at that time though was no more surgery. Like you, I wanted to live whatever time I had left with some dignity and quality. I am proud to have read your thoughts and your determination to do this your way. If it helps, continue to share your thoughts and feelings… I shall think of you every day when I wake and say a prayer before going to bed.
Stay as strong as you can. Please know that there are so many wanting to share your life with you. It is beyond imagination! We are from all walks of life, of races, creeds, sex and backgrounds. What we have in common is our BC and our care and concern for each other.
God Bless You.
BJHi Lisa,I wish we could make all this ok for you,but we don’t get to do that.What I can do is pray for you and your family .I think you came across like you wanted in your post, positive and brave. God bless you, Rocky
Lisa – I too am finding it hard to find the words…I will be keeping you in prayer for comfort, peace wisdom and strength as you battle this. Margot and Harry
I dont really have the words but I’m thinking of you and your family, you are amazingly brave and an inspiration to us all!
You will be in my thoughts and prayers xxxThinking of you Lisa and what an amazing woman you are. Prayers for comfort.
Ta Grade 1
6 TURBS
15 BCG
dx Jan 07Hi Lisa,
Just wanted to tell you that I wish all of us could have the strength that you posess. You are an inspiration to us all.
xoxo
Melissa
Hi Lisa, Thank you for sharing your latest news. I know it is difficult to share such disheartening news. I think you are taking the right approach to living with this news. Live in the now and enjoy. Hugs, Julie
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ABLSCLisa, this is really really hard news, and you must be hurting a lot. Your decision to face it squarely is a hard one. You’ve got so many things to decided, and to contemplate, and to handle.
One of the most helpful books my husband read after his metastasis was “On Death and Dying” by the Dali Lama. He said the first two chapters were of more help than any of this doctors. This is NOT about giving up and giving in, but living to the fullest…that’s the message.
And it sounds as if you’ve already got that message.
Stephany in Iowa
Lisa,
I am so proud to know you. I can’t wait to see the photos of you and your girls. Reaching out to hug you as you live every day to its fullest.Charlotte
Lisa….you are one amazing woman…I am in awe of you. Please know that you have friends all over the world thinking of you and reaching out to let you know how honered we are to be your friends…I cannot wait to see photos of you and the girls.
With love & In Support,
Karen
Caregiver for my Wonderful Husband Angelo, who has Metastatic Bladder Cancer.Life isn’t about how to survive the storm, but how to dance in the rain.
GuestFebruary 16, 2009 at 8:46 pmLisa,
You know how I feel. Please know I will be here for you.
Love
Anne
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