Loucksy,
I know firsthand how terrifying this is...you explained it perfectly when ya said, we feel good..yet we have this serious illness..it becomes very easy to 'forget' about it, that is until it rears its head once more! Oh, one more thing...I, like you, feel that knowlege is power...although with bladder cancer I have found that it may not be entirely true...at least in some respects, there can be 'too much' knowlege...on one hand, we must trust in our doctor's decisions and on the other, we want to educate ourselves to enable us to take an active part in that decision making process!! I found some pretty scarey stuff which in reality could easily 'be me'...BUT, finally the reality that each case is unique has taken hold...for now, I am going to cope with each recurrence as a 'new' one, doing whatever it takes to be cancer free...if only for a while...AND let go of the worry...until there's something definate to worry about...in MY case...until then, life is GOOD!!!
Keep us posted...My treatments begin again on the 28th of this month...