Wow! I surely don't blame you for being frustrated!
What a pain.
On the other hand, it sounds like you don't have cancer.
That's the positive part.
Still, having it be a red and inflamed must be a problem because you have to keep getting TURBTs. If it were me, I'm not sure if I'd just be damn glad they keep coming back and saying no cancer or if I'd want it to come back with cancer just to remove the choice about RC and get it over with.
Sorry I can't cheer you up but I think I kind of understand at least.
Mike