I get the anxiety. I was quite surprised with myself and the anxiety I had before my last cysto. I would have thought I had gotten used to them but it is the idea of finding more tumours that upset me.
We all have to do it so at least you are surrounded here by others in the same boat. We can be your shoulders.
I hope you have a clean cysto and please keep us posted.
Heres a hint my holistic therapist told me, hold your right index finger in your left thumb. Its a way to "rest" the worry.