Pemquid,
I had the same... same inital diagnosis; then 2 clear years, then a recurrence, which I had biopsied/fulgurated in-office, too. That was last Feb. My uro kept me on 6-mo schedule for cystos with a cytology at the 3 mo. point, however, since the recurrence was also TaG1. I go back on the 21st of August for the next cysto.
I was very complacent last Valentine's Day, too.. and when he said "uh-oh" during the cysto, I had such a de;ayed violent reaction.. after the biopsy and fulguration (and dern that HURT, but for a very short time), I went out to my truck (alone), and went pretty near hysterical in the parking lot. Perhaps I thought myself invulnerable to anymore news of cancer, after hearing it once 2 years before? Even after all I've studied this beast, I guess I thought "once is enough"...not so
Last month, I was much more panicky about my mammogram, now knowing that having cancer ONCE is not going to guarantee me a cancer-free life going forward.
Now, if they find it again next month, I will be having BCG for the first time since my initial diagnosis. I won't be so shocked this time; in fact, I shall go in and watch the monitor, expecting to see it again, and will go have a very large martini if it isn't there:laugh:
Best of luck to you, be strong, remain fearless!
Lauren