sol
you have to wait for the path to come back which is obviously pretty nerve wracking. you remind me a lot of myself as I had a similar diagnosis - superficial high grade BC and concomitant cis. also im not a lot older than you. I was 29 when first diagnosed and am 44 now. I eventually went for an elective neo which is probably not very encouraging for you to hear but after absorbing all the stats (which no doubt you have) on refractory (bcg resistant) cis I decided that, for me, it was the safer option. If you do ever go down that road it's a well trodden path, you have age on your side and you'll bounce right back up again. That said, I was also ready to gussy up, take my vits, improve my diet and mind and take the BCG as far as I could before getting to bladder removal. wait for the path. BCG can also cause red areas that are ulceration and inflammation. I had several scares like this during my year and a half of BCG and they turned out to be nothing at all.
all the best
tim