I guess I have stayed away because I needed to avoid the reality of things for a while. I am now almost 8 months pregnant and am trying to be excited and happy for the changes that are happening in my life, but there is always this dark cloud.
I called my mother this morning and she is moving the bed downstairs for my father because it is too much for her to take him up and down. He is in a lot of pain in his bones and is so stubborn! My poor mother is having anxiety attacks and is so completely stressed out that I am afraid she is going to have a heart attack. I am so frustrated with him because when he could have helped himself by doing strengthening exercises, etc.. he didn't and now he is SO weak and depends on her for everything. He cannot even wipe himself. It is very sad and I feel bad when I call and she complains and I don't want to hear it. I know I should be more supportive but sometimes I just don't want to listen to it all. I know that is selfish. I know that he will not get any better but this is no life for anyone and it just isn't fair
Thanks for letting me vent.
Melissa