Hi again,
Been a while since I posted, and so much has happened in that time. I've been trying to find the new normal, trying to do the important stuff, and trying more.
I've been dealing with some of the same health issues a while, and I have been getting beat up by some new ones. It seems I need more B12 than just a monthly shot. And I have let go of a Dr who has not taken me or my real health issues seriously.
I still deal with freak outs over new or increased pain. I still feel like a pain in the ass when I ask a Dr to "please explain this to me". I try to be grateful for todays pain for I have no gaurentee I will ever feel that good again. And I try to always smile, too.
You know me and you know why I have to post tonite. I am having many of my scans and labs tomarrow. I try to not hold my breath while I wait for the results, but I do. I want to hear I will be ok. Atleast that it isn't getting me yet. The usual fears are with me tonite. And I cannot contain them all with a smile.So I get them out now.
Thank you hearing me and caring. I will get the results on Monday, God Bless us all, Holly