Hello all! Just came from Mama's and this is the palce that I like to share my thoughts. We celebrated 2 of the grandkids birthdays and had a belated egg hunt today. It was wonderful. Everyone was there (all four kids, all 4 spouses, and all 9 grandkids). That really isn't unusual since we all live very close together. Anyway, Mama was in good spirits of course and Daddy was too. He just looks so old and he worries me. He tries to stay busy and does the craziest things. This week, he pulled up a huge stump and hauled it into the yard so that Mama could plant roses around it??? He also found a big rock that he was determined to bring to the house (you would have to know him
Anyway, he was so involved with this rock that we had to go out and hunt him down Wednesday night AFTER 10:30!!!! There are 800 acres, so you can imagine.
After the egg hunt, Mama sat all the kids down and handed out little gifts to each and told them how much she loved them and how each of them are special. It just reinforced the reality that this could very well be her last Easter. THat she may not see the kids' next birthday. That is why I said it was a day of mixed emotions. While it is wonderful to be together and have a wonderful time, there are always those gloomy thoughts in the back of your head.
I didn't think Mama looked good today, but my husband says I am imagining it. She seemed distant in a way. I guess she also has those thoughts in her mind. She seemd tired....physically and emotionally. I just don't know. We had a great day together, so why do I just feel like crying?