Dear MSSMR,
I waited a few days to respond to your post...it is easier sometimes to respond to concerns that don't hit so close to home....
My husband was diagnosed with Bladder Cancer in June (the 21st you never forget those dates do you?)anyway, we then found out in Aug. that it had spread to a lymph node, and the bones...very shocking as you well know...we were worried about the bladder removal surgery...and then the surgery wasn't even an option. He started receiving Gemzar/Cisplatin...but there was little change...he was doing well, is 47 yrs. old, and the Dr. decided he could be more aggressive and started the CMV Chemo (MVAC with out the "A"...He will have a CT Scan today...a Bone Scan Wed. and the results/Dr. consult Thurs. We hope to see a change, but realistically this is such a gamble...regardless we have decided too start/finish the radiation before Christmas, and if more Chemo is going to help, then we will start up again in Jan. we want the best Holiday ever and Chemo is not going to be part of it...(the lasting effect will be but not the actual treatment) The radiation we are told will help the pain he is experiencing, and that is huge. I know it seems like the medical community has limited resources for this stage of cancer but the reality is that they really do have limited resources...everything is "lets try this", until there is ultimately nothing left to try...I has to be frustrating for the medical personnel too. They want to cure you almost as much as you want to be cured (this has been our experience anyway). Not every Dr. has the best bedside manner, that makes it even worse...Have you gotten a second opinion yet? Sometimes "Changing Dr's." especially when the disease has progressed this far is a good option...someone with a fresh set of eyes, a major Comprehensive Cancer Center, or just a support group...someone who will be there for you for as long as you want to fight this disease. The fight you have is good...it is important to have a positive attitude, and whatever you decide on how to proceed with treatment know that you are so strong, I have never been more amazed at my husband strength (and he was a strong guy prior to this cancer) than watching him fight this disease, fight the symptoms, side effects, and the "system" that says a cure isn't possible...If anyone can do this he can...and if you have the fight in you so can you. Fight for every good minute you can get..Don't settle for less than the best of everything including your treatment...demand it...Remember that this disease at this stage gives you the freedom to say whatever you need to (within reason, and you must spare feelings in some cases) but don't be afraid to say what is on your mind, what you need, and what you want...I cannot guarantee that you will get it every time LOL, but you need to feel free to ask... Please keep me posted on how you are doing, and what you have decided to do...If you find or hear of any new trials be sure to give us the heads up too.
My husband wanted to add the following:
Something that I have found helps free up your mind in this fight, is to settle old issues with family, friends, and spouses..it helps you keep your mind clear for the issues at hand...take the time to make that phone call, have that talk etc...you feel a weight off your shoulders, and it helps you concentrate on what is ahead...If you are religious then you will also see that God understands that you want to fight for the life he gave you and for those around you...put it in his hands, and fight your fight...he will let you know when to stop fighting, or when to keep going...have faith, t will help you in so many ways that you don't even realize until you let it go, and know that he will take care of you...
In Our Thoughts,
K & A