"A NEW CAR!!!" Sorry, I had to find out what was behind the curtain. I ALWAYS hope for the New Car. I am in the New Car business. Sadly, at the moment, a domestic make, small town dealer makes it kind of a double whammy to have both cancer and sagging business at the same time. Sometimes my humor is a little jaded. So, please take some of my lines with tongue in cheek. Wry humor with a twist seems to find a home with me these days.
Seriously, I am saddened to hear the latest news but I am so pleased with your response. I am constantly told by my friends that I "look good" or I seem so "well recovered" Sometimes I want to sceam and Punch something. You are allowed to Scream louder, and Punch harder, than I can.
I wish you well and am very concerned for you physically (I know, after reading your posts that emotionally you have your mind in the right place) I remember that line "show me a good sport, and I'll how you a loser" You are not a "good sport" You have every right, in fact you are required to scream, kick, swear, throw a tantrum and gnash your teeth.
I sincerely hope that you have great treatment and they care for you the way we care for you.
I am known for saying "It is better to look good than to feel good" (this was an old SNL skit with Billy Crystal doing an imitation of Fernando Lamas) to let my friends know that sometimes, on the inside, I'm not feeling quite as good as I'd like.
Please be well and know that all of us who write on this blog, and many more who only read, are behind you 100% and want to travel this road with you back to health.
Light a man a fire and he is warm for an evening.
Light a man ON fire and he's warm forever.
08/08/08...RC neo bladder
New Man! [/size]
Cynthia, I don't think people understand the true meanings of some of the words they use, nor what we really go through. When people tell me that I am so brave, I want to say "you haven't seen me at home when I cry, pound a pillow,yell, or know how much fear I am feeling." But I don't. I looked up the word brave and the synonyms are fearless, undaunted, bold, intrepid and heroic. I don't think many of us fit those definitions. Survior means to remain alive: live on; to carry on despite hardsips or trauma; to cope with a trauma or setback; one who lives with affliction. So yes, we are survivors and we do carry on and we try to cope. And we do have hardships, trauma, setbacks an afflictions.
When I read the numerous and difficult treatments you have endured only to end up having your bladder removed, I know you are a survivor. And you will survive this next big hurdle because, as you said, there is really no other good option. You fit one definition of the word warrior (not the brave one but) "one who is engaged in or experienced in battle". That's you. You didn't enlist for this war; you were drafted. I'll pray that you will be given strength and peace of mind as you head for the newest battleground and that your surgical staff will have the ultimate wisdom and skill that only God can give them.
I'm so sorry to hear about your latest challenge. I'm glad you can vent on the subject...you know all here will help to cover during your absence as best we can. We all get tired of trying to be strong...get as much rest as you can in preparation for the surgery...you will surely be in my prayers. Hugs, Melodie
Melodie, Indy Pouch, U.W.Medical Center, Seattle, Dr. Paul H. Lange & Jonathan L. Wright