Ray, I felt exactly like you do. I asked my doc for meds to calm me down prior to surgery, and they helped. Then I set some goals for post surgery. Surgery was 8/28, and I played a (poor) round of golf on 9/29. Seems like everyday I get a little stronger and can do a little more than the day before. My thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time, but, as you read on this site, there are MANY success stories. You too can be one of these stories. Stay positive, there are many of us thinking of you.
I can so relate to what your feeling I had surgery on 23/8 and just wanted to add my support.The anticipation is worse than the reality.If you have any questions please feel free to PM me.I wish you lots of luck.
I"m glad to hear you feel better, and tell you you're lucky to get an appt with Dr. Schoeberg on Tuesday. He's been bridging the gap between doctor and patient for years, also supports this site as an advisor. I think you will find it a reassuring experience, I know many people who are very satisfied 'customers' and the urology department is tops.