Confidence crisis really bad day

Thanks
She just really knocked me for six I was floating around in a nieve bubble I suppose but its how I have coped.I am sure she meant really well and didnt mean to upset just support.Maybe I needed a reality check.
Lisa x

Lisa,

I feel for what you are going thru right now. And I can really relate.
When I was dx'd and even thru treatment (especially the chemo) my friends changed. Some bolted and have not spoke to me since. One who bolted later came back and confessed his fear I was dying kept him away. Others stepped up and fortified me most compassionately. People who were acquaintences became like family. This happens to most of us. Know that it is evidence of thier problem coping - not yours. Surround yourself with positive folks - keep the negative outside even if you need to enlist the help of others to do it. But it is them not you.
Just yesterday I experienced a blow at my confidence but it came not from friends - it was my trusted oncologist. You can see by my past posts what happened. Yes, I cried, got scared, and felt like it was over. It got me way down. Great thing about my God - he let me wake up today - full of pee and vinegar - ready to fight. My warrior is preparing a plan and an arsenal and I am getting ready. This is not an easy fight as you know. My prognosis was not good either according to "clinical" information. So what. Somebody had to step out of the box of known treatment to help us get this far, and I am one of the next somebodys
In closing, give yourself a break. You are strong, you are doing what you have to, you are fighting. Know that sometimes our friends will fail us thru ignorance, fear and insensitivity. But it is their problem.
God Bless, (((Lisa)))), Holly

Lisa, I was in Santa Fe for Thanksgiving. We went to the Georgia O'Keefe museum and there were pictures of her in her 90s. In spite of the wrinkles, in spite of the faded eyes, and in spite of all the deterioration that advanced age brings, she was a beautiful woman.

If you're going to stand in front of the mirror, then stand in front of the mirror and smile. Look at your smile, not your scars. The world sees your smile, not your scars. Don't let your friend's thoughtless words rob you of even a moment of the happiness (or at the very least, peacefulness) you deserve.

We can't help thoughts and feelings that pop into your head, but we don't have to invite them to stay. We certainly don't have control over all your circumstances, but we do have control over how we respond to them.

Another thing about smiles--I notice that many people *return* smiles, but few people *start* smiles. Go outside and start a smile. See how it makes you feel.

Zach

Hello
I am having a huge wobble I have just been out for lunch with a really good old friend and shes made me cry and really scared.I am sure she was trying to be kind thoughtful and all the rest but shes completely knocked the stuffing out of me.
We were chatting waiting for our lunch and all she said was how amazing and brave she thought I had been facing mortality and how the treatment would change my body.It really has effected me obviousley I had thought about it but I have tried not to too much and have just got on and done what needed to be done.She dropped me off about an hour ago and I held it together until then and now I feel wrecked.I have just stood in front of the mirror looking at my body and realised what she meant.
I hadnt thought about the prognosis only that I am going to throw everything at this and beat it and now I am scared that it might not be enough.
Oh God I ve let the worms out of the can and I dont know how to get them back in.Is it normal for it to hit like this I have managed to stay so positive so far.
Lisa