I also suffer from this "cystoscophobia"! I have been wondering why they don't do cystos like they do colonoscopies? A little propofol, off to dreamland, then right back. I have no problem going back for a colonoscopy, but the idea of going through a cysto again gives me off-the-charts levels of anxiety. Mine hurt...not discomfort, but pain, and I did indeed yell out as he went through my prostate. The toe-curling I did on my own, as well as being as tense as a two-by-four. I know that's when, because he told me, "OK, now you might feel something as I'm going to go through the prostate". Hey bub....I felt something the whole time....but thanks for letting me know it was about to get a lot worse! Couple that with the fact that I already suffer anxiety from any work done down there stemming from many childhood surgeries, and well, I just wish there was a better way. Like propofol! Does anyone know why they won't just make that an option?