Welcome Finalman2. Unlike Alan (whose contributions I find very helpful), I'm new to this. I had a cystoscopy over 8 weeks ago. For about 2 years my PSA level was all over the map. I was having minor urinary problems and my prostate gland is "moderately enlarged." My urologist wanted to have a look inside to determine the extent to which the urethra had narrowed where it passes through the prostate. While there, it made perfect sense to have a look at my bladder and viola, as plain as day a tumor appeared on the monitor. Seven weeks later a TURBT was performed and two tumors were found and removed.
You indicated that you "don't know how to deal with this being thrown at me." I can relate. I am making a conscious effort not to get ahead of myself. While admittedly I've investigated what the worst case may hold, I've not obsessed over this (by spending hours and hours reading medical literature, studies, personal accounts, etc.). I'm finding the cliche "take it one day at a time" to be very much appropriate for me on this journey. Next up for me, a meeting with urologist Thursday to discuss pathology report.
I'm curious as to what prompted a cystoscopy in your case?
Finally, at around 55 years of age my dad was diagnosed with bladder cancer. It was around 1972. From what I recall, he had surgery and tumor(s) were removed along with "part of his bladder." He had radiation treatments as well. I remember dad wouldn't go anywhere without knowing the location of the nearest restroom as well as the closest barroom. I vaguely remember being told he had a 50% chance of living until 60. He died at 70 from complications entirely unrelated to bladder cancer and directly related to the bar room. There is hope. Plenty of it.
Best to you.