Just Received the basic news

Thank you all for listening. I don't have anyone else to talk to and it's good to know that you all will listen.

Thank you Catherine and Lillian for the encouraging support.

I guess the reason for the Stage 4 diagnosis is that from the CT Scan, there are spots in lymph nodes, a nodule on my breast and also a spot on my lung. So, since it appears to have spread to other organs, they said I was Stage 4.

I am so confused because nothing has ever shown up in any annual reports and pap smears.

I'm in a better from of mind today..maybe. I will try to think positive during the next two weeks until I can make the appointment with the gynecological team on October 30.

Thank you all so much.
Henri

Henri, I'm so sorry to read your latest post. I'm also surprised that they said it is stage 4 without a pathology report, but even if it is - there is always hope. It's early in the process, so try to remain positive (I know that's much easier said than done).

Please take care of you, keep us posted, and vent all you want or need to.

Hugs,
Lily

Thank you Catherine,
I've never even thought I would be in this situation. I am 72 years old. I don't want to even think about going through Chemo. Since I am at Stage IV, it scares me to death to think that I am so close to the end. I just can't stop crying. If there any hope at Stage IV? I know I have to get my mind fixed to think about facing this, but so far, I don't know how to do it. I'm not afraid of dying. I'm just afraid of facing the pain.

How could this happen when I've been so faithful about regular checkups? Nothing has ever been out of whack. I don't even know what kind of cancer I have, and they are already saying it is Stage IV. That sounds like a death sentence to me.

I'm sorry for venting. I just have to say these things to someone. Thank you for listening.
Henri