I know exactly how you feel. Even the fact that I have a lifetime of medical study doesn't quell the anxiety caused by the uncertainty. I don't know about your religious values, but I am a Buddhist type and love the Eastern traditions. They give me a lot of peace. I especially love reading The Upanishads, and Osho. If you are interested, I will recommend some sources.
Hi, it is totally understandable to have a case of nerves pre cysto. You have come to a great place for good answers. We have been where you are and the waiting is the hardest part. It is indeed best to move forward to cysto and biopsy. It is the unknown that makes it so hard. When are you scheduled for the cysto?
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