Hi Tahoe,
Hope you got atleast a few ZZZZZZZZZ's last night...I had a hard time relaxing after I was diagnosed.
I believe Wendy posted a good one, especially about being careful about what you read in regaurds to how many kinds of bladder cancer there are. Keep in mind that most bladder cancer is noninvasive. You could do a number on yourself by reading all the invasive cancer info and you do not need that right now. When you read here about our journies thru bladder cancer - look for the hopes and the strength.
When you get your path report and recommendations for treatment - post it. The forum will help you get info you need to understand what you have. They will also want to be sure you get the appropriate care with the best drs you can get. This may seem strange and freaky, to share such with strangers. But everyone here will want the best outcome for you and you benefit from all our experiences
The unfreak stage has taken me quite a while to find, and it can still be elusive. Life has changed. This cancer made me feel robbed and violated - I couldn't find a place ( even in my sleep ) to feel safe for a long time. Even now the night time is when I have to lay down with the quiet and my fears. Some nights I do better than others. I am pretty sure others struggle with how life has changed too. I rely on my faith yet I have fearful moments. I laugh and smile, but sometimes I cry. And everyday I just try some more...now I am babbling!
Good Luck today, God Bless, Holly