You are doing great!
When necessary you go into the bathroom, or down in the basement, or out in the garage and you SCREAM!!!
Then you come back and are once again the strong support your husband needs.
When my husband was diagnosed with lung cancer, not only did I SCREAM, but I broke out all over with HIVES. (That was really helpful.) Guess I am saying that we all find some way of coping, and some work better than others.
There will be dark days and there will be sunny days. If you are fortunate, your dark days and your husband's will not be the same day. That way you can hold each other up.
And you can always vent here.
Sara Anne